The Grotto, Portland OR
There is a place in Portland, Oregon called the Grotto which is a National Sanctuary dedicated to the Sorrowful Mother of Jesus Christ. The Grotto is a 62 acre botanical garden with its own chapel and administered by the Friars of the Order of the Servants of Mary. It is a place for meditation and prayer surrounded by roses and camellias, lush in the wet Portland weather.
A number of years ago, my oldest daughter was going to be confirmed at the University of Portland and my family went up from California for the ceremony. It was Easter time and a fitting time for a confirmation. On Good Friday, my wife and kids all wanted to go to the mall, and I wanted to visit the Grotto. We decided to drop me off at the Grotto and they would return later in the afternoon, at which time we would attend Mass at the Grotto's Chapel.
Ironically, I arrived at a bit before noon, as Catholics commemorate Christ's Passion on Good Friday between the hours of noon and 3:00 p.m. I had at least four hours to roam the grounds and be surrounded by the beautiful gardens by myself. Coming through the entrance, I saw the gift store and went in. I found a small book for meditating on the 14 Stations of the Cross and thought that would be a fitting way of spending some of the hours that I had left. I also bought a Rosary and then left to explore. What I was to find was one of the most amazing events in my life.
After a short walk, I found a pathway filled with rose bushes and fourteen open air shrines commemorating the 14 Stations of the Cross, each station with a small wooden kneeler in front of each sculpture. I thought what a symbolic act, I had my book on the Stations and decided to follow the meditations. As I looked at my watch, the time was noon, and Christ's Passion was being recreated and remembered now all throughout the world.
I came to the first station, knelt down and began reciting the prayers in the little book. Christ was being wrongfully condemned to die. He was innocent, and it was I who was being condemned for all the hurt and wrongs which I had brought into this world.
I got up and proceeded to the second station, Christ carrying the Cross. I knelt down and began the appropriate prayer. As I was praying, my shoulders cramped up; I had tostop for a minute, take a deep breathe, relax as the cramp slowly went away while I finished the prayer for that moment. As I got up to go on, I thought how strange, as if I had momentarily felt just a fraction of the heavy weight that Christ had to carry that day.
As I walked on to the next station, I stumbled a bit; then I knelt down for the next event of that day, Christ falling for the first time. I began the prayer and as I proceeded, my legs began to hurt, particularly my knees on the wooden kneeler. I thought this a bit strange as they hadn't hurt before, but I continued on with my prayer, as I anxiously shifted my weight from knee to knee, trying to find a place or position where the pain would just go away. I was glad to be finished and got up to proceed to the next station.
The fourth station went easier. It was remembering Christ's mother and her sorrow as she came to her Son. No pain here as I knelt and prayed. I had ten more stations to go, and now committed more than ever to finish what I had started.
I continued on, kneeling each time and trying to imagine Simon coming to Christ's aid to help carry the cross, the fifth station, on to the sixth where Veronica wipes Christ's forehead of his sweat and blood coming from His crown of thorns. As I knelt, all my pains and aches were gone until I got to the Seventh Station, Christ falling for the second time. Again, pain swept my knees and shins as I sped up the meditation, relieved to once again stand to proceed to the next event.
At the Eighth Station, Christ met the women of Jerusalem. It was a sad day of evil and grief, but I thought there were moments of relief and of support and the pain from my legs had gone away again as I knelt.
At the Ninth Station Christ falls again for the third time. How strange that the number 3 occurs so often in Christ's life. Again, my legs and knees felt more pain at this station and again I hurried in my prayers and remembrances.
At the Tenth Station, Christ was stripped of his clothes, preparing for what was yet to come. Again, no pain.
At the next Station, I knelt and again the pain returned as I meditated on Christ being nailed to the Cross. By now tears were welling up in my eyes as I became so sad in remembering these events of over 2,000 years ago.
That day was a beautiful day in Oregon, all sun and blue skies. As I proceeded to the next Station, knelt, prayed as Christdies on the Cross, a cloud came over and shaded the entire area. A chill went down my back as I realized it was now 3:00 p.m. and I only had two more stations to go.
I proceeded on to Christ being removed from the Cross and finally to His burial in the Tomb. I had done it, all fourteen stations as I walked out of the small circular pathway back into the rest of the Grotto. I stood there, looked back and thought how strange, went back and examined all the kneelers. They were all the same. Why would my legs hurt on only the stations that commemorated Christ's pain, and not on the rest where He was consoled?
Well I still had some time left. I looked around and then I found another meditative area where there was a huge metal sculpture of Christ carrying the Cross with benches around it, all surrounded by beautiful rose bushes. At the entrance to this site were two large beautiful camellia bushes all in red flower. I thought to myself this would be a good place to sit and now say the Rosary. By the time I would be finished, my family would be back and then on to Mass.
I began to enter the area and moved toward the bench. It was as I entered that, all of a sudden, all the petals from the camellia flowers fell off to the ground. All of them. It was as if they were tears of blood hitting the ground. Not one flower remained, and there was not a bit of wind in the air. I thought to myself that Mary, the mother of Christ, must cry tears of flowers for her Son, and for us all.
Well, I said the Rosary, then went out to meet my family and we all then went to Mass. It had been quite a day for me, a day that I would never forget, a special day. Yes, all might have been a coincidence, the pain, the tears, and finally the camellias, but I never thought so. I was so honored that day to commemorate an event, and, in a small way, have lived through just a bit of the pain and sorrow that Christ must have felt in those hours. Clearly, it was a mystical experience. I felt at peace for the rest of that day.
If ever in Portland, you must visit the Grotto. Even better, visit this fabulous place on Good Friday, between noon and 3, and let me know what happens.